I’m nervous to even write this post, I feel I will be jinx in someway. I’m going to anyway. Fuck it.
I had been (had being the key word) in a very low and dark place for what seemed like forever. In real time it was from around the 7th month of my pregnancy until I would say around a week or so ago. My son is 3 months old.
I want to let you women know, there is an end and you will find your light. As I am starting to find mine, we all have a different sentence post natal depression/depression wants us to serve.
I had it for so long I thought it was how I was, my personality, normal. Just the way life went. I was wrong and it wasn’t until I had crazy overwhelming thoughts and I felt I had lost all sanity I realised.
We can beat it, it’s taking that first small step to break those chains around your ankles. For me it was going out and being more sociable. I literally forced myself to see family members and make arrangements.
Surrounding yourself with positive people – to be honest with you I thought this was bullshit. Why would I feel like being around happy people.. happiness was my enemy. But it actually worked I let myself get sucked into their joyful spirit. I have a few special ladies to thank for this.
If you don’t feel like seeing anyone,take a walk with your baby or alone. Just talk to someone any one about how your feeling. You are NOT alone and your problems and feelings are valid.
If I can help any of you beautiful strong women out there please do not hesitate to contact me personally at firstname.lastname@example.org if you need someone to talk to or any advice at all I am here. Let’s unite and get through this together.